It’s been a while since I have written anything. I miss who I am when I write, yet I am not sure I can get in touch with her anymore…

I used to burn with a need to write and express my thoughts and feelings. I ran to God and was lead by the Holy Spirit. Tonight I lie awake in my bed unable to sleep. I wonder what happened to Eliza, the fearless woman who cried easily because she felt deeply and loved without condition. I don’t remember the last time I cried…has it been two years?

I know God is still here and He loves me all the same. I miss how intimately close I was with Him. I don’t know why I feel so far from Him or how to find my way back to that place again.

Now I will sleep and pray for a better day tomorrow.