Well, this was once how I felt. God continues working with me on the issue of obedience and submission, and has for many years.
I have a very rebellious nature and have had to face this in my walk with the Lord. God’s word equates rebellion to witchcraft, which was quite an eye opener for me. (I Samuel 15:23 nkjv).
Through this realization, the Lord walks with me, teaching about submission and obedience. He is helping me understand true freedom is found when I am in right relationship with Him. Right relationship is where I willingly yield to Him and obey without questioning. In this posture, I acknowledge Him as sovereign over my life. I seek Him, and only Him as my source of love, self-worth, and approval.
I know many women struggle with the concept of submission and obedience, and we all prickle a bit reading Ephesians 5:22, instructing women to submit to and obey their husbands. They see this posture and position as weak and powerless. Yet are we missing the truth? True power and freedom come from God. As we turn our lives over to Him, follow His plan and seek wisdom from His word, He will give us the desires of our hearts. The thing is, most of us do not even know the desires of our own hearts. We get caught up in pride, the political issues and social mores of the day, and we let these guide us. However, God sees past our facade and blustering words. He knows exactly what our hearts long for; an intimacy that touches both body and soul.
God has been using the image of a wild, untamed horse to show me the condition of my heart. Over the years He has used this image again and again to lead and guide me in a process of healing my heart. He is my personal horse whisper…the one who in peace and gentleness whispers to my heart until all I desire is to chase after Him. In this chasing, I am completely free and unrestrained, yet no longer wild.~♡